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[19 Jun 2006|01:03pm]
So I thought i would take a second in my boring life to post even though no one will ever read it... So since last time well lots has changed... lets see im not going to be a vet ne mroe which most opf you prolly already new i want to go to school to be a special education teacher...yup...thats my life...i won tons of scholarships this year and that cool...more money for me....ummmm i can't really think of ne thing else..well kids its been tight see ya next time
Broken Hearts

[15 Aug 2005|09:50pm]
So no one ever uses this ne more...but w/e i thought i would update....

well nothing really has been going on...i had del mar fair and then ramona and have been working throughout the whole summer...gay i know...but the money helps....So im going to sea world on wednesday its gonna be friggin tight i ahven't been there in so long... school starts soon its really depressing....ugh...oh well...so this year i'll have no one to hang out with...well dumb if shes not mad at me for ne thing...i think she is tho...so i guess im shit outta luck....haha oh well we r seniors...1 more year and im out..haha...this is going to be the longest year of my life...well kids im gonna go for now i'll talk to ya'll later
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[04 May 2005|08:47pm]
So i think im going to prom for fun its going to be friggin tight i can't wait lol...
Broken Hearts

[07 Apr 2005|08:59pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

So my friends are all mad at me for lord only knows what i did...its really depressing...but what am i supposed to do?...ahhh im so frusterated this week..all i want to do is sleep in my bed with blinds closed for days on end..

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[02 Apr 2005|09:35pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

So im bored outta my mind...there is nothing to do ne more...well least for me...i never get invited ne where so w/e im over it...

My mom drives me insane she constantly yells at me for something or other...Its like come on mom we all know that i am never going to be good enough for you so stop ur f-in bitching....geeeze shes gone bug me to death...rrrrrr i hate her...shes the type of person in life that well makes you not want to live it...oh well i have got used to it...the words your the stupidest kid ever, i iwsh i never had you, try a little harder(thx ma like i don't try hard enough) and the wonderful get the F out of my face...those words still hurt but not as much...one of these days i am going to give up on everything...quite it all...sleep locked in my room for days and never leave...and until then....i keep trying...god i really am stupid...

ok otherwise....break has been gay...but w/e my ma offically talks to my dad more than he talks to me...after getting it pointed out my sum1...i guess you could say im jealous of my step mom and her family...but i don't even think that...maybe its true but i think im more hurt by my dad...after all he did replace me...w/e

well you don't want to listen to my shit...i'll let you go...

* you are a skid mark on the underpants of society....i love that**

Broken Hearts

[01 Apr 2005|08:06pm]
So spring break is almost over...it sucks...

im sick of work...i work everyday...never get a day off...i can't hang out with ne one cuz i always have to work...not that ne one ever wants to hang with me ne ways...whatever im sick of having friends that only want to hang out with you when they ahve no one else...its really dumb...im so sick of everything and everyone right now...well everyone else is out...but im at home...with no one to talk too...

Well my mom is driving me insane...n i can't take it ne more...so im sitting in my room with the door locked...i can tel this is going to be a long night...

well kids i hope ur having fun...peace out fucks
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[25 Mar 2005|01:38pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I think im finally happy...for once which is amazing for me...spring break started today...fuck ya...i get to go get my pig tmw...i can't wait...then hopefully my lamb comes on sunday...ya now i'll have somthing else to do...

so regional parli pro on wed...we sucked and as smith said it was mary popins(which doesn't make ne sense to me) everything went wrong and we still made it in the top four which go on to state..so lots of practicing until then...i haven't decided if its a good or bad thing...lynz is happy tho...she gets to go her senior year so thats good...umm i don't know if i will be able to go to state finals..cuz work an all i ahve to talk to dr Gordon...scary..ugh..well we will hope for the best..but i really don't wanna comepte i'll suck like i did at state...

my dad came up last night it was fun...i really do miss him...but when he trades you for someone elses kids you can't exactly do ne thing bout it..its sad to think..i used to be daddy's little girl and now im no ones little girl(well forget the little part).:(

So my mom and step dad have been fighting a lot latley and its really starting to get on my nerves...my mom really frusterates me..ever since smiths comment...but i can't say ne thing to her..she just gets mad..learned the hard way...also when my step dad and my mom are fighting don't try to stick up for one..lets just say shit will go flying...literally....I have leanred now that when they start argueing i just get in my car and drive around aimlessly...

When shit gets tough i have the tendancy to give up...it seems easier..i need to learn not too but i ditch out...

well kids its been tight tellin you my life story but i got to leave sumtin fot later..

im out like a drunk guy in dodgeball...

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[20 Mar 2005|04:34pm]
I want to cry so badly. But I'm tired of crying for loss. And it seems never-ending. By now you would think that I would be able to cope better with things, but I can't. I'm screaming inside. On the outside I'm calm, cool, and collected. Perhaps, that's the only thing I've been able to perfect over the years... acting as if it's all ok.
Broken Hearts

[19 Mar 2005|10:09pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

Its all just one big cover up.....fooled you too didn't I.....

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[15 Mar 2005|07:49pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

well life just sucks doesn't it....

So once again i ahven't talked to my dad in like forever...whatever i guess i should just forget the fact that i even have one ne more...It doesn't matter hes gone...

So i don't know if i am going to do parli pro ne more...im so sick everything...I don't have time for shit ne more...My work has me working everyday of the week now...fuck that..oh well i guess it doesn't matter ne more...its not like i ahve ne friends to hang out with or ne thing...so pretty much all i would do is sleep...well im going to stop blabbing about myself to myself....

So peace out fucks and have a nice life.....

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[10 Mar 2005|09:29pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Wow its been a long time since i have posted....oh well i don't hvae much to say ne more i guess...whats the point of expressing yourself when no one reads or listens ne ways...

So i am really getting sick of ppl walking all over me...and assuming that i will do w/e for them...you know what its gay...i am also sick of ppl hanging out with me when they don't want too just cuz they feel bad. Also don't hang out or call me whn you ahve nothing better to do...it makes me feel like shit...like i already don't know that you hate hanging out with me just add to it...fuck you...im not doing shit for ne one ne more..what the fucks the point they don't do shit for you in return...whatever im sick of everything...

So my dad has offically replaced me..He never calls me ne more...he went to mamoth with cheri and her kids i didn't even get invited or for that matter even told...I guess its the hardest thing for me...but i have to cover up my feelings because heaven forbid i be depressed for once... It tears me apart..i used to be daddy's little girl...now i mean nothing to him at all...but ya no one gives a shit about me or the way i feel...So a big fat Fuck You to you too...You know that i have always been there for ne one no matter when or where if they wanted to talk...but when i need to talk noooo im just a drama queeen thx guys...thx for the support...

Whatever im done...call me a bitch if u want i really don't care ne more...Just add to everyone else...

And you know what don't bother talking to me ne more becuz i prolly don't want to talk to you....peace out fucks

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[30 Jan 2005|05:41pm]
If you ever said u loved me,
then never say u haven't lied.
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[09 Jan 2005|06:28pm]
So i have been sick this weekend..fuckin flu...everyone at my work has got it now...oh well..so i feel way tired and way weak..

I don't really hang out with ne one ne more...i mean while im not in school...ya know cuz im a loser..So no one will help me with ne thing ne more i ask them but noooooo...w/e..no will help with my steer...so pretty much just guessing on how im raising this thing...my parents told me that its hard to get into vet school...thx ma expecially how she has pushed me to become a vet and now shes telling me that its hard to get in...ugh she frusterates me so much...So now she tells me that i have to find another job case i don't get in...ugh...so now im all stressed cuz she tells me this now and its not that far away...i guess just wing it...fuck it i don't even wanna be ne thing ne more...no school nothin...

welp i must go cuz im gettin dizzy sittin up this long...peace out...
Broken Hearts

[27 Dec 2004|09:51pm]


You Are a Dreaming Soul





Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul




Its a Horsey....Wait a sec...R u trying to tell me sumtin?




You Are the Helper



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You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you.

You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know.

Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere.

You connect with people who are charming and charismatic.




i wanted to be number 1 ugh


HANNAH
H is for Hardworking
A is for Ambitious
N is for Natural
N is for Naive
A is for Altruistic
H is for Hilarious


im not so sure about that
Broken Hearts

[27 Dec 2004|10:33am]
So its been a while since i hvae posted i know i know slacker..but im over it...i decided u don't have to post everyday bout everything it gets long...an update here and there is good...im glad christmas is over..it was ok..lots of driving around...Mels down for awhile..we went to the movies last night...ya i know ur just jealous..umm got home way late but because I SUCK AT SLEEPING watched tv till 330...now im up thx to bird and mom...Desert this weekend..FUCK YA...its gonna be so much fun...don't worry we'll think about u while we r out there...NOT...lol..god im annoying...oh well...

welp kids im bored of u...so im gonna go..
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